…make everything I have endured in this process seem worthwhile. All of the pain, the sweat and the frustration eventually gives way to exactly what I’m aiming toward. I can see the changes manifest in the deepening of my poses, the increase in strength, the physical transformation. When I let go of the struggle and allow it to happen, something else entirely takes over and carries me through. When the sickness takes hold of me, it is my refuge and relief.
The best part has been getting to the point where I need it. I cannot go without it. I never thought I’d make it here.