I went to sleep exhausted, hoping for a good result. I worked at a job outside the house most of the day and returned home surprised to find I was able to keep going. I knocked out several writing assignments in a row, working until I was woozy and barely able to brush my teeth for bed.
My partner was addressing a last minute computer problem (is always doing so) and I passed the time waiting for him by trying to prime my mind and energy body for action, reading up on Dreaming methods.
I had very emotional dreams about protecting people and taking care of them. Then I had a Highly Unusual occurrence wherein I felt in my dream as if I had taken a tab of acid. I then had some important exchanges and did some bonding with people in the dream.
What bothers me is how vivid and complete the whole experience was, yet I am unable to recall much of what happened. I rarely experience recall issues. It isn’t troubling, but it is a little bit frustrating. J operates off the idea that he will recall what is important or when it is needed.
I have a plan in mind to give my Dreaming a boost and to address other issues. Another return to the beginning to relearn the basics all over again. These are the methods I used to begin as a Dreamer and I wonder what effect they may have at this stage in my life.
I still believe there is a magical formula for my day which will make it possible to get to every important pursuit, complete my work, and survive mentally and physically. Now that I’m about to be working solely from home again, I plan to tear down all the old structures and reset everything.
Running has been great at times, but this season it seems to serve only to wear me down. It isn’t gaining me anything important beyond basic fitness and is taking away from my abilities many days to complete even the simplest of tasks. After I’m done, I am used up for the night and writing is a struggle. I’d still like to face the personal challenge of a marathon, but it is in part vanity and doesn’t lead me anywhere.
I believe it is time for a return to the esoterics. To build other parts of myself. Running can take a back seat. I’ll do a few miles a week to sustain a certain level, but focus upon yoga, the three wings, and meditation, along with martial arts practices, to fill the majority of my physical agenda.