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Nobody expects anything real to happen when you do meditation – unless you meditate. Then you expect it. But it isn't reproducible in the way that scientific people want it to work. You can reproduce it, by spending years in the practice and observing the results. Things happen that never happened before. Put them in the lab, and you don't get results. It isn't about that.

This is one of those things, real but unprovable, and if you know what I'm talking about you won't argue. If you don't, it'll sound like crap. That's ok. Even if it sounds like crap you could actually practice and reach this point yourself, if you care enough. My problem is that mostly I don't care much. I accept problems and expect them and don't feel much obligation to fix things.

Follow up:

This past week was different. We don't have a lot of money this year. Not working for anyone but us, living on what we do that's actually productive, jeez it's like living in old China. If the farm doesn't produce you just starve to death beside the railroad tracks, hugging each other. Scary but real.

First, my car died. Hey, it's been dying all summer, actually ever since I bought the thing. Fixed this, fixed that, I drive it about twenty miles before something else falls off. One more thing, just one more thing, and I'll have to sell it to whoever thinks they can fix it and depend on the bicycle. Then my computer died. Completely. Turn it on and I get zip, not even enough to boot up and get into safe mode. Can't reinstall a thing. Obviously it works and it tries, but nothing happens. ? Hard drive problem? I did install a freeware program just before this happened, because I trust people and I'm half Scot and I like free stuff. Is it the program that's buggered things up? I dunno.

We can't go to town and buy a new hard drive immediately, so in our meditation late at night I try to just calm down and see straight, and after awhile without intending to do anything I have this really clear moment of understanding where I see that everything is energy, and I remember that this particular energy heals things, and this is how you bring it into your life, and if you do this things happen. So I do that, thinking as I do it that it may actually not be focused towards inorganic beings like computers. And then, when the meditation is over, I let go of it. I don't care what happens. I don't expect miracles. I'll go fix the problem myself.

We go to town and buy a new hard drive. As I'm about to slap it in place I notice a connector that isn't straight. Hmm. Couldn't be the problem, because I'm not that lucky. I straighten it out, boot up the computer – years of technical training causing me to look for the simple solution first – and it works. That's all it was.

I decide I should get the car fixed. If it won't fix I'll sell the damn thing because it's cursed. Couldn't even get it to town the last time we tried it out, it was doing crazy stuff and eventually the service engine light came on and we came home, got the other car. I lift the hood, check things that are checkable, jiggle stuff that jiggles, and really feel like getting out the sledgehammer and putting an end to its misery. It's sucking the life out of my bank account.

But after the healing meditation, I call the mechanic and tell him the demonic things the car does, and on the way to town to leave it at the clinic the car runs fine. The service engine light goes out. The mechanic looks it over, finds nothing wrong and changes the oil. It runs fine on the way home, and we go to swap the unnecessary hard drrive for real money and there's no trouble. On the way back, after dark, for the first time since I got the car the headlights work normally, not sheared off halfway up like they used to be. We can see where we're going. It's healed. I had actually asked the car guys to fix that and they couldn't find anything wrong. Now it works.

I can't explain it. If you tested this in a lab you'd come up with nothing. No one cares about what happens in a lab experiment. This is based at least partly on emotion. Emotion fires it; need makes it happen.

But I like it. I'm grateful. It's a long string of bad luck come to an end. I don't care how it works, I'm just glad that it does. If you take up meditation, don't expect this to be automatic. It won't be. But in a thousand ways it will show up in your life, again and again. It's the truth you can't prove.